Yesterday I wrote something. Its still in my drafts. I wrote it in anger and while so tired from the days’ activities, I closed my eyes immediately after the last fullstop. I however didn’t press publish because I hadn’t proof read it and I’m my biggest critique so I saved it in my drafts, hoping to go through it before the day ends and post it.
Fifteen hours later, I reread the piece and I’m skeptical about posting it. From the first word to the last fullstop is a boat load of anger towards someone I truly care for. The post was prompted by a report I’d gotten late in the evening and I got upset about it. As usual, yours truly takes her anger out on the keyboard. So type away I did.
I’m still pretty upset because the blows keep coming but I am reminded of a God who specializes in the impossible. Chidinma’s song Jehovah Overdo, in one of the verses she calls him Protocol Breaker, Mountain Mover. There is nothing God can’t tackle, no protocols He won’t break to get you what you ask of Him in prayer, no mountains He won’t level to ensure you pass through.
See, most of the times when we are facing trials and difficult times we think of calling so and so, asking for help, figuring it out on our own, try something out before we admit we are truly down. God becomes our last option when essentially He should be our first option, always. James 4:2b says “You have not because you ask not.” If I had to interpret that it simply suggests that if I just asked Him, I would get the answer faster and more efficiently than going through all my options first and thinking He is the last option when all else fails.
God’s promises are clear in Matthew 7:7-8 about asking, seeking and knocking. “Ask and you shall receive, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.” Its pretty simple to be honest. So why did I think that punching my keyboard buttons and throwing my vocabulary (thanks to my amazing language teacher in primary school) would bring me some ease or an answer? I mean, why do we often run to other people or things we feel would help us out instead of first consulting with the sole creator of the universe, the beginning and the end?
My situation is frustrating if I’m being honest. We all know how it feels to give and give wholeheartedly to a cause and feel unseen and unappreciated. We all face diffculties that sometimes we choose to keep to ourselves because we can’t really voice them. We all fail in one way or another and see no way out of the muddy puddles. Life happens, right?
The difference between getting up and staying down is dependent on how we choose to treat every struggle, every worry, every disappointment, every failure. God desires that we would ask of Him because He is always on call and ready to listen. He knows what we go through but He needs us to take a step and seek Him first so that His power can be manifested and His grace can abound in our situations.
Sitting here, I realize that as much as writing is my outlet, it may only do so much as opposed to seeking God’s face and listening to His still sound voice. At face value, David didn’t have the capacity to face Goliath. However, he chose to revere the God of Israel and stand by the promises of God in that moment where it all rested upon him. He said, “This day the LORD will deliver you into my hands, and I’ll strike you down and cut off your head. This very day I will give the carcasses of the Philistine army to the birds and the wild animals, and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel”
Our mountains probably look a lot more like Goliath at face value. I know mine do. Engage me for a minute here, what if we told our mountains about the God of Israel? What if we let our situations know that we have a pretty awesome backing behind us and we shall not be afraid no more because God is with us? What if we experienced difficulties and took a second to say, ‘God, this is what is going on. I am not sure how to deal with it, I do not know if I can survive it but I’m asking you to come through for me here. Let your will be done.’
I don’t know about y’all but I’m pretty sure I’d be in a much better mood no matter my circumstances because my Mountain Mover, Protocol Breaker is on my case. He’s got it all under control, you know?
Well, this is your reminder to seek first His face, whatever your situation. Tell Him about that child that’s gone astray, tell Him about that job that isn’t making you happy no more, talk to Him about that partner that’s sending mixed signals, invite Him into that impossible situation and watch Him turn it all around. God is not a respecter of persons, He doesn’t go back on His promises. You can rest, knowing that God’s got you.
Hey, God will work it out!